New arrivals--they were regarded with a look of curiosity from Tabris, who still observed with a smile, but more of a mixture of joyful curiosity than anything else. A gate opened up in the throne room; for someone to have such access, they certainly had to be extremely important to the kingdom. No king in his right mind would have trusted someone with such access otherwise; risk of assassination, blackmail, and extortion would have been too great. Seeings how this did not prompt Syrus or Dyami to prepare to fend off some sort of invader, Tabris and the others saw no threat. Tarreun even had a positive reaction: whistling from a semi-high pitch to a low pitch, impressed by the entrance.
Both the man that accompanied the "creatures" and the creatures themselves were matters of interest, but such was an issue to be attended to in the future. Perhaps an offhanded question, an inquiry through some means, of the nature of the mysterious individual--something to wait for a later date, nonetheless.
"Aha~" Tabris cooed pleasantly, "
Those creatures. They're not Shades, per se--close,
that I must admit, but I also must admit that I personally know little about them. I've only heard of them."
And while Tabris knew little about them, there was one amongst them that could claim such knowledge. Nonetheless, the very fact that Tabris knew of those creatures was a fact worthy of interest: the Lumen may have had contacts and information vastly superior than originally assumed.
"It's interesting, though--I have never actually encountered them face to face, but . . . if I remember correctly, Roaeh has."
Indeed._________________________________________
It was a recollection--a memory, a recall of a past event, days ago, weeks ago, months ago--years or more. Time was unimportant, inappropriate, unnecessary--superfluous to the mind of Roaeh. His was a dark vision, devoid of hindsight and foresight, existing only in the current, but that bleak, empty mind was not a walking contradiction to those he associated with--the Lumen, who Tabris claimed to be the light, the counter-existence of Shades. Roaeh did not see darkness; he saw Void. Not shadows, but emptiness.
Beneath the gentle waves, Roaeh opened his eyes, staring up at the sun gleaming at high noon, shimmering its reflection throughout the calm water. Tranquil, even with the presence of another. There was no feeling, no sound, no smell, no taste-- no heartbeat pounding in his skull. There was no current, nothing to drag him along or sway his body's state one way or the other. He was in perfectly stagnant state, immobile, requiring nothing more than his body to simply exist, and his eyes to gaze endless at the hazy blue sky. It was perfection for him, the only place where a man such as he could call home. Decency was optional, feeling was optional, thought was optional, moral was optional, existence was fleeting-- necessary, yet given little attention.
It was only when a bird passed his vision, drifting from the canopies, or gliding ever southward in the fall panic, that Roaeh's "attention" was ever diverted. Each caught the glossed over eyes of the thoughtless being, forcing his attention to return to himself, temporarily making him remember who and where he was--but the lucidity of forced amnesia, of nihilist mental shutdown and the blank stare through the soul of a hollow reality could return as quickly as that bird could glide beyond his limited, straightforward field of vision.
But when a foreigner encroached upon his empty stare and stagnated just as he, Roaeh felt the uncomfortable dissonance of his negative existence--the permanent remembrance that he was truly there, and that eyes not of his own were present--eyes locked upon him. It was in the corner of his eyes, given no attention, but acknowledged as an itch--one that had to be given attention, but his unwillingness to do so worked hard to triumph over the willingness to scratch it, and in the end, Roaeh found himself lifting his hand and scratching his cheek with his thinly bit fingernails, rubbing the tips of his fingers across his cheekbone.
This returned him to reality, forcing him to blink in reluctance, and finally breath out for what felt like the first time in hours-- days-- weeks-- months-- years--
how long had he been there? That must have been the creature's inquiry as it stared from the lakeside, watching from beneath the cowl of its hood Roaeh's naked form, perfectly still in the midst of the water, never dragged up by oxygen in his lungs, never dragged down by buoyancy in his body, and only subtly drifting in the minimal current.
Returned to forceful acknowledgment of a non-linear reality, Roaeh swayed his arms before himself, drifting up, and kicking to push himself to the surface. Like a newborn child birthed into the world, he struggled to pull himself out, dragging himself to shore, reaching with every ounce of strength in his body to grasp the towel set by his discarded clothing. Existence was exhaustion. Panting with every passing second, Roaeh sat upon the grass littering the lakeside, towel draped around his waist. Veins ran up his gaunt body like spiderwebs, flowing across every individually defined rib and focusing around the muscles in his chest, swimming up his sternum, dancing across his shoulders, and falling down his biceps in scattered success. Every muscle, tensed and built despite the small structure of his body, throbbed with each of Roaeh's gasps.
With shaky, hesitant motions, he lifted his hands to his face, pushing aside the dark bangs that stuck to his face and clung to his eyes. Roaeh's haze covered eyes, with speckles of pink fragmented across his irises, gazed across the small body of water which he called home for a time he could not even begin to recall, meeting eyes of which he could not perceive, but knew only by the feeling of the gaze: it was as if that creature was touching him, physically searching for some sign of feeling or thought--something behind which a human heart beat, and spent its entire being molesting his soul for that feeling with nothing more but its eyes.
And it found nothing._________________________________________
"They . . . are not--
shades," Roaeh explained, the inflections in his voice being almost random, with seemingly sporadic emphasis on words that required no such stress, ". . . they . . . are creatures tied to . . . the heart-- not the . . .
soul. They are . . . creatures
that take emotion . . . and feeling . . . and thought. They . . . are not-- fear."
Roaeh lifted his right hand, his motions fluid despite the difficulty experienced in his memories. It was placed over his heart symbolically, followed shortly thereafter by lifting that same hand up to his forehead, placing the tips of index and middle fingers upon his powder white skin. The heart and the mind, connected as they were, functioned independently for most, but never truly deviated from their collective paths: to feel fear was to know fear, a symbiotic relationship between the mind and the heart.
Defining what a base being truly feared was a difficult, testy process; and though his actions were minimal, they served their purpose, pointing out that which he spent little time defining.
". . . fear is . . . what
is unknown," Roaeh continued, ". . .
emotion is known-- people . . . feel emotion, and see . . . people without . . . they know . . . what it is to feel nothing. That is not-- fear. Fear . . . is nothing. --humans . . . fear what is unknown-- what can . . . not be seen . . .
or understood. They cannot see . . . in the dark-- they cannot hear it, smell . . . it-- taste, touch -- it is a mystery. That is . . . human-- fear. That is where shades . . . are born. That is where Lumen . . .
are conceived."