Peace?
Thorin tried to dissect the word in his mind. There had never been a time of peace that he had known. Even now, when they dined in these halls, their so-called “peace” would be made by a false security. Jace would be too young to understand that. He couldn't hold his naïve nature against him. Scoffing at the boys words, he was just trying to teach him to defend himself, rather than break so easily in combat.
When Jace requested to understand him, he wondered how he could. They had lived such different lives and Jace had been born under extreme conditions. How could they possibly relate, when his son had lived the life of a spoiled palace brat? Yet, he spoke words of eloquence.
His mind ascended into a calm thought. Thorin was exhausted from the events and knew he should be by Igraine's side with Morgana. Cursing, he began to place furniture back into its place. He didn't understand what Jace was asking for, considering his own upbringing with his violent father. Being a calm Vuri, was more unsettling than being a violent one.
Thorin would have never dreamed of standing up to Vylrath. If he had said the same words, he would have been cut where he stood. Jace carried the same determination and Thorin recognized it. No matter how many times Vylrath had beaten him down, he had managed to fight back. Jace was giving him the same reaction and that filled Thorin's chest up with pride.
“You wanna know who your father is?” Thorin didn't tower over his son, but he did dominate most of the room. “I am a weapon- a Vuri warrior. All I know are blades and blood. Because of Queen Igraine, I saw something in myself that others ignored. She saved me...so I guess we have her in common.” Thorin's voice sounded pained, as if he didn't want to share what he had just revealed. Knowing the circumstances, Jace would have died, had Igraine not taken him in as her own. He owed her for keeping his son safe.
Pausing, Thorin thought about his next words carefully. “I'm sorry that you didn't get to know your mother. I don't know why your mother abandoned you, but I'm here now.” Thorin felt uncomfortable. All of these emotions were beginning to build up in one place. He had never shared so much with an individual before. If he ever laid eyes on Lydia again, she would regret the day she tricked him. Thorin had no idea that Lydia was actually dead, or that Queen Igraine was responsible for her death.
Thorin stretched awkwardly, feeling the silence begin to thicken between them. “So...what else do you want to know? I'm new at this father-hood thing, so you'll have to go easy on me.” It wasn't an excuse, but merely an explanation on why things were so tense between them. He didn't exactly know how to interact with Jace, let alone find common ground, but he was attempting his best.