Indeed, Etsu opted to stay at the house, rather than go check on the Krigensons with Eld, and she made that decision without a word. She hadn't even looked back at Eld, as if it didn't really matter if he was walking with her or not at all. She was going back to the house, and if he was following her, then so be it. She just wasn't going to acknowledge him. However, a hint of acknowledgment was the fact that she stopped at the door after he declared his intentions, and waited for a moment, perhaps subconsciously to see if he was really going or not--or perhaps it was a brief moment where she was making a decision without even realizing it.
And that decision was to go back to Eld's room. If she was going to stay there this evening, she didn't know. She'd decide that later, whenever Eld came back. Mayako and her family were probably going to be asleep already, but if she explained that she just didn't want to stay at Eld's place tonight, then they'd probably understand.
But all that was arbitrary once she reached Eld's room. Her naginata was left in the same corner as her clothes, which she removed, expecting no one else to be around to walk in on her. She replaced her bra and underwear with a comfortable and loose sarashi, followed by a white kimono she liked to wear to sleep in, usually kept (carelessly) folded on top of Eld's dresser.
As she had so many times before, Etsu sat upon Eld's bed, arms draped around her knees--not quite close to her chest, but elevated all the same. Usually, she simply gazed outside, and could do so for hours on end if she so desired, simply staring outside without a word, left alone with just her own thoughts and observations. Sometimes, at the end of the day, it was nice. She could make better sense out of things that way--especially people. She could make much more sense out of other people if given the chance to sit alone and think on it. Other people were senseless creatures, so difficult to understand, so difficult to put 100% faith into-- and while blind trust existed more often than not, when given the time to think on it, Etsu often questioned why she trusted the people that she did. Indeed, there was as much self-questioning as there were reflections on those around her.
But at first, she didn't do that. Rather, the scythe on the floor, once more just an average (albeit very sharp!) farming scythe, caught her attention. It was in the same place that she left it. Seemed Eld hadn't even touched it. She had placed it next to the bed, between the bed and the window. Etsu leaned over to pick it up. It was heavy and unwieldy . . . it was a wonder that Eld could even be efficient with the thing. That, too, was arbitrary, as she held it partially on her lap, the with blade hanging down beyond the bed. Unlike the last time she held it, Etsu wasn't really concerned with the condition of the weapon.
For awhile, she examined it. Was this what it was like-- for people like Illorex? To try and see through something, to see the person underneath all the knives out. She ran her hands across the wood. It might have been bent a little throughout, but it was well carved and sturdy; the wood alone could probably last against a steel blade for at least a few strikes. As far as wood goes, that was fairly significant for a pole. Etsu reached her hand over to the blade, gently running her index and middle fingers across the flat side of its blade. It was almost perfect. No blade in the world could ever boast true perfection-- only almost. And this had it. It was perhaps sharper than her naginata, and much, much sturdier. It held no bend in the middle, just a near perfect flat horizontal sickle, long and arcing downwards ever so subtly.
Perhaps she should have seen the difference between scythes. The dupe Eld had was meant for farming. But this . . . this was meant for much, much more. It was meant to destroy, and destroy efficiently. Even without the spirit of another creature inside, this was not a weapon that was to be bartered or given away without the slightest bit of thought. It was something to be respected, for both its purpose and its quality. And in the same vein, it was not meant to sit on a display, useless-- it was meant to be used for its purpose in life: for battle.
And no matter what, he who was cut down by such a blade, or he who was cut down holding such a blade-- would die a beautiful death.
Sometimes, that was all you could hope for.
"Can you hear me?" Etsu asked outright.
She didn't know if she'd get a response or not. Eld did, whenever he spoke while holding this beautiful weapon. It was always implied that he was off somewhere else, thinking, speaking to someone else with thoughts alone. Kageko, the spirit of this murderous and glorious weapon. Etsu had called out to her. She wanted to hear her voice, too. She wanted to know what it was like to speak to someone who, in their own right, was a spirit of warfare and battle.
Etsu . . . was envious. She could never be that beautiful, she could never be that useful. She had no utilitarian use mixed with an emotional investment. She was complicated. Everyone around her was complicated. She was trouble for all of their lives. If she were a blade, she'd be one divided and stretched across a vine, cutting everyone around her and whittling away at her own stability all the same. She wasn't Kageko. She wasn't merciless and beautiful all the same, kept in check by form and function, truly separated from the rest of the world, cutting only when it came time for utility--never on a personal whim.
For a moment, she thought she heard something. Something faint, something buried somewhere deep with the recesses of her consciousness. The wind. It was merely the breeze that flooded the room and flapped Eld's drapes around.
Etsu sighed. She propped the scythe up against the corner and let it stand there for now.
The probational Reaper was still lost in thought when Eld came back to his room to announce that, not only was he back, but that he had cooked dinner for the two of them. Etsu broke away from staring out of the window and passed her gaze onto Eld, whom she regarded with a nod of her head. She didn't really know if she was hungry or not, but now that he mentioned it, she smelled something. It was familiar. At the very least, she figured it was necessary to go out and see.
And after she got up and left Eld's room, she was treated to quite the spectacle of food--or, rather, her absolute favorite food in the world. Chicken curry and rice. Odd. Eld had never made that before. It took so long to make, too . . .
She wanted to say something-- something like you did not have to do that, you could have just made rice, you did not have to spend that much time cooking, or anything along those lines, but Etsu couldn't actually word any of it out. She simply remained standing before the kitchen table and staring, with a look of subtle bewilderment upon her face.
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